After I finish a big project, I always think that I’m going to party hard. Unfortunately, I always finish big projects at 3 am, when I’m bleary eyed and hyped up on too much coffee. Instead, I end up in a sort of daze, wandering around my apartment, trying to figure out what I should do next.
This very situation happened last night. I finished the first draft of my dissertation, and thought, YES!!
I also thought that there would be a group of people waiting to party with me, complete with confetti and champagne. Because it was 2 am, and I have no roommates…
C. knew I was almost finished with my diss + offered to help me pop bottles. Unfortunately, he was in Virginia. We postponed.
My family, who is so excited for me, who has prayed for me, and supports me in absolutely every way, is in Pennsylvania, Connecticut, and New York right now. After all, they have lives to live! They are so happy for me, but no one was here at 2:30 am to say “YAY! I can’t believe you did it!”
So I had to figure out a way to celebrate by myself. After much deliberation, I went to a library and got stacks of books to read for fun. I took myself to lunch + drank a beer called pretty things. I had tea with my best friend. We watched Fruitvale which was really good and really sad. My flipflop broke and I went barefoot in a movie theater; I had to find emergency sandals at Payless. I had toast and soup for dinner because, naturally, I’m feeling sick.
It was, in other words, an ordinary day, replete with mishaps and my own clumsiness.
Here’s what I have always known: my work is important. I love it. It’s awesome! But at the end of the day, it is only a part of my life. So I do my work to glorify God; I don’t make work my life. And I can’t make work my god. It will always fail me if I do so.
I’m happy to have written a draft of my dissertation + I’m looking forward to revising it. In the meantime though, I can’t wait to pop bottles with my friends. All of life is worth celebrating, not just the ridiculously awesome moments.
work hard, play hard (and only worship God),